Sunday, August 19, 2012

I wanna live like that

I have officially decided that I am not going to be timid anymore about pursuing my passions. I am going to push the condescending, judgmental thoughts of others out of the way, and I am going to do what I love, and I am going to have fun. There are just so many exciting opportunities out there to express my right-brained self! Haha :)

For right now, I have decided that it is okay to pursue BOTH sense and sensibility. Life is actually about finding yourself, AND creating yourself. (Therefore I am removing the flashing button at the top of my blog haha). It is possible to mix both. So I am just going to keep doing what I am doing.Whatever is meant to be, will be. God will open the right door, and whatever it is, and whenever it happens, that will be okay with me. :)

I'm just so excited, because He knows the purpose of my life. Even when I am unsure, He is sure. If I put my trust in Him, he will guide me through. Sure, I am going to stumble (most roads have bumps and curves), but He will help me up. Hopefully, as my life progresses, I will learn from life's difficulties to help someone else. I want to be able to make a difference for Him and I want my way of life to point to Him. I can't wait to see what amazing things God has in store for me! :) :)

"People pass,
And even if they don't know my name,
Is there evidence that I've been changed?
When they see me, do they see You?

I want to live like that and give it all I have,
So that everything I say and do points to You!

If love is who I am, then this is where I'll stand.
Recklessly abandoned, never holding back!

I want to live like that!"

-"Live Like That" by Sidewalk Prophets

 "In his heart a man plans his course, but the LORD determines his steps." (Proverbs 16:9)

Tuesday, August 14, 2012

One of those days

Today was just one of those days. You know, one of the days when everything is just off kilter.

It started with only seven hours of sleep (not nearly enough for me...I'm one of those people who requires 10 hours of sleep but only gets like 8). When I woke up, I realized I only had 30 minutes to get ready and out the door.  When the printer failed to print my important paper with only 5 minutes left, I knew it must have been a sign predicting the rest of the day. I was right.

Anyway, to make a long story short, I left fifteen minutes late, lost my phone in the car (for crying out loud :/ lol),  had to turn around when I discovered the road I was on had a detour (I didn't know which way to go, by the way, so I just had to wing it), and arrived at my destination 20 minutes late.

A string of several other stressful events occurred as the day progressed, but in summary, I guess I will just say again that today was just one of those days.

Actually, as I looked back on the day, I realized that the only positive thing that happened to me was that Taylor Swift released a new song (I am pitiful lol). It really is a good song though. My friend and I blasted it in the car. Such an action should really be considered medicine.

Cure for "One Of Those Days:"

1. Walk to car.
2. Get in car. With friend (<--optional but increases success rate by 50%).
3. Turn on car.
4. Roll down windows.
5. Put hair down.
6. Turn CD (or iPod) to blast-worthy song (or radio if you don't own blast-worthy song).
7. Start driving to random destination (examples include: friend's house, grocery store, McDonalds, you get the idea.)
8. Crank up volume.
9. Turn up bass.
10. Start singing. Loudly.

Disclamer: If you don't sing at the top of your lungs, you are at risk for medication to flop. If you don't roll down all of your windows, you are at risk for medication to flop. If you choose a song without a decent beat, you are at serious risk for medication to flop and then drown.

Good luck, everyone! (Hope this will help at some point!) Haha ;) :)

~Foreverfaith <3

Monday, August 13, 2012

Life is about creating yourself

 "Life is not about finding yourself; life is about creating yourself."

As I look at the flashing icon at the top of my blog, I have to confess that this quote is more of  something for me to strive for, rather than a belief that I have already adopted. Lately I have been trying especially hard to not worry as much about what I should do, but to let go and try things that I want to do.

Such a thing can be quite a scary prospect for someone like me. One time, my English teacher gave our class a quiz to find out whether we favored classical or romantic views. I think my score was almost tied. Therefore, I have come to the conclusion that I must be a romantic at heart, but with realistic boundaries (as a result of some reality-checking life experiences). But really, should one chose the safe, practical path, or the seemingly unattainable dream?

Before now, I would have always defaulted to the first option. I knew that dreams were looked down on by reality. Dreams wouldn't pay the bills. Dreams wouldn't be respected. Oh, so it worked out for a few people? That just couldn't work for me; those people were lucky, outgoing and confident.

Such thoughts still come to mind when I look at that flashing icon. But lately, I have begun to realize that I don't know if I want to miss out on my passion. I don't just want to read the words; I want to be a part of the story. I don't want to plunk out the individual musical notes; I want bring a theme to life. I don't want to just scribble down sentences; I want my words to create beautiful pictures.

Do I dare let myself crack open the door to the risky dream? Is it possible to choose both sense and sensibility? For now I guess I will just continue to admire that never-ending, cycling icon as I gain courage to not only think about what I should do, but what I want to do... :)

Thursday, August 2, 2012

Sometimes I feel like we worry too much about what others are thinking about us. In reality, people are not going to constantly remember the one time you did something you thought was so embarrassing. :) Just something to think about. Remember: in the course of a lifetime, what does it matter?

Wednesday, August 1, 2012

“Real life is a funny thing you know. In real life saying the right thing at the right moment is beyond crucial. So crucial in fact, that most of us start to hesitate for fear of saying the wrong thing at the wrong time. But lately, what I’ve begun to fear more than that, is letting the moment pass without saying anything. I think you deserve to look back on your life without this chorus of resounding voices saying, I could have, but it’s too late now."

-Taylor Swift